No amount of anxiety makes any difference to anything that is going to happen.
Alan Watts - How To Melt Anxiety.
You may have learned from your mother or any other hunted woman. Smiling at devils is a useful learned thing. Swallowing discomfort down in spades. Holding it tight in your belly. Ageing on the inside only. Keeping it forever sexy.
Understand, I’ll slip quietly
away from the noisy crowd
when I see the pale stars rising, blooming, over the oaks.
I’ll pursue solitary pathways
through the pale twilit meadows,
with only this one dream:
You come too.
Rainer Marie Rilke, “Pathways”
'And you’ll always love me won’t you?'
‘And the rain won’t make any difference?’
Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms